Wax and wane: phases of creation

Wane. You hear the vibrations as the drop hits the water. You hear the sharpness as the axe splinters the log. Be still, and you hears silence.

Wax Waxing is not building stuff, it's exploring new territory. By adding this new piece, how do I change the whole? Do not seek motivation as the adder of things and changer of systems. Instead, feel the pull from the place you're going. Smell the curiosity of the thus-far white area on the map.

Bbbbbutbutbut Is the Wane phase really required? Are there not alternatives, escape hatches? Fear not, there are!

One is … ✨ burnout ✨. Instead of listening to your body when it asks you for peace, you pushed on! You brought the pain! Feel the strength of doing the thing. Instead of intentional peace, you are finally unable to move. You identified as the maker of things and the changer of systems. No longer pushing forward fills you with shame.

But fear not! There is another alternative! ✨ Forget it and do something else! ✨ The thing you can no longer add anything to? Push it off to where you cannot see it. You don't need the reigns of the past to limit you where you're going! Without touch and attention, it will calcify. Loose its softness. But pray hope that you do not have to touch it again. For as the touch of your feet warm it back up, your nose viscerally understands it for the crap that it is.

This text was conceived on a walk. That walk was a reaction. I was messing around with the seed of a game, having had good help from a language model getting off the ground. Wanting to extend my little game to show the text on signs, and signify that signs can be read, I looked into the code, wondering what I'd make. The code was repulsive. The module splits I made three days back had gotten trodden down, and coupling followed. So, clean it up, right? I wasn't in the mind for that, so I took my head outside.

I wasn't in the wane space. It wasn't the wane period, for me, even if the code required it. So I took a break!

Wane requires a slowdown. For me, at least. I can't do it all at once. First, I need peace.